"You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you don’t even have a name for."
Richard Siken, “Crush” (via perfect)(Source: wordsthat-speak, via perfect)
darkness..
you feel alone, dark spacious room overcoming you, there’s nothing you can do at this moment but just try being calm and steady, but you can’t? the walls are closing up on you, you’re letting all those words sink into you. You’re sad, tears streaming down your face & all you do is nothing. Your in the worst position ever, as the black covered blankets cover the bright blue sky, & you feel much more worse. You feel helpless. You feel cheerless. & there’s a word for it because not even a smile goes on your face ever.. it’s called depression but also know, you are not alone. It doesn’t mean cutting will help, it also doesn’t mean you should take your life for granted. your amazing, & i don’t just write this for myself, i write this for anyone who feels like this because at one point i felt this way. i wen’t through this alone but i still manage to live. I think for once, you should put this in your head, let it sync in, and be happy. - Francisco Ruelas (livinginfranciscosworld)
